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22 February 2010 @ 07:47 pm
Numb3rs Fic: Don Eppes' Inferno  
Posted to numb3rs_slash
Crossposted to eppescest


Title: Don Eppes' Inferno
Pairing/Characters: Don/Charlie
Rating: NC17
Spoilers: Season 1
Summary: The circles of Don Eppes' hell
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ


The Circles of Don Eppes' Hell...

First Circle - Faithless

There is no God.

Don doesn't think it's possible that God could exist, create two men as brothers and stand by and do nothing as those two brothers were helplessly drawn to each other.

There is no superior force of good in the universe.

There may be a force of evil though...

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Second Circle - Lustful

Don takes off his coat and tries to look casual about leaving it in his lap.

Charlie's standing up in front of the group, excitedly presenting his findings.

He's irresistible when he's like this: all youthful energy, brilliant mind and unbearably sexy.

Don's achingly hard from the first few minutes on and spends most of the presentation imagining grabbing Charlie, pulling those loose jeans off him and bending him over the conference table, fucking that sweet tight ass until he begs for release.

Later that night the kitchen table stands in just fine for that fantasy.

+

Third Circle - Gluttonous

He'd lie about it if he had to, but by this point Larry is used to Don coming to Cal Sci to steal Charlie away for cases. He just waves them off with a troubled sigh and Don leads Charlie away by the arm to his car.

Sometimes they make it to Don's apartment. Sometimes they don't.

Don doesn't care. He can't get enough of Charlie and he can only steal him away from their father at night infrequently because they can't risk him getting suspicious.

Alan's sharp. He'd figure out that something was going wrong.

Larry's brilliant but clueless.

So Don keeps stealing Charlie from him, trying to stave off an unquenchable hunger.

+

Fourth Circle - Greedy

Charlie's hosting the informal gathering, or rather it's at his house and Alan's not around to ply them with snacks, to celebrate the end of a major case.

Trying to be a good host, he makes his way around the room talking to all of Don's team members, not just Larry and Amita.

As he moves around the room, Don moves with him.

He inserts himself into all of Charlie's conversations. He even manages to physically move Charlie so he can stand between him and Amita, taking his time so neither notices the unspoken 'back off he's mine' subtext.

He wants Charlie all to himself, but since he can't have him he's going to make damn sure no one else gets him either.

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Fifth Circle - Wrathful

He doesn't lose it at the scene.

He's more concerned about getting Charlie out of there, getting him home where they can forget the sniper, forget that Charlie almost died, forget that Don almost got him killed...

He doesn't lose it at home.

As soon as he gets Charlie into the apartment it's tearing, clawing, frantic 'have to have you now now now' until his cock explodes in Charlie's ass and they lie trembling, entangled in the bed sheets.

He goes to David's apartment the next day and loses it.

David made a mistake. David brought his brother to an active crime scene. David almost got him killed.

David's smart, he doesn't report Don for beating him up. Don's smarter and doesn't leave any marks.

The next day at work it's like nothing happened.

Except David is never given charge of Charlie again.

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Sixth Circle - Heretic

Fuck the law.

Don Eppes has spent the last ten years of his life enforcing the law.

Now he's breaking it and has no plans to stop.

He wishes he could flaunt it, stand up in public and say 'yes I'm fucking my brother and there's nothing wrong with that.'

He wishes he could be with Charlie openly, as if they were just another gay couple.

He wishes he wouldn't lose the job he loves because he loves someone his job says he shouldn't.

Some days he wants to quit out of protest, but mostly he just gets annoyed with the futility of it all.

The criminals don't seem to give a damn about breaking the law.

Why should he?

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Seventh Circle - Violent (Divided into Three Rings)
Inner Ring - Sodomites


Charlie has bruises, Don knows this. He put them here.

He's not sure how they got into this habit, but it happens with almost frightening regularity. There's a bad case. An innocent is hurt or killed. Don decides he didn't do the best he could have done to save them. The rage builds up inside of him, self-hatred and self-loathing driving him to violent thrashing.

And then somehow Charlie gets Don to direct that energy into fucking him.

It's brutal - he slams into Charlie's ass, digs his fingers into his soft flesh as he buries his teeth into his skin.

But it works.

Afterwards, drained, Don apologizes when he realizes he hurt his brother, but Charlie just sends him off to sleep and forgetfulness, thinking Don doesn't know he slips off to the bathroom later to steal one of Don's pain pills.

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Eighth Circle - Fraudulent (Divided into Ten Ditches)
First Ditch - Seducers


Charlie didn't know any better when he was young, but Don did. He knew Charlie idolized him, worshiped him, would do anything he asked. And he twisted that brotherly love into something secret and wrong.

His generous offer to teach Charlie how to kiss… Making sure Charlie overheard him making out with first girls then with guys, ensuring he'd associate his burgeoning sexuality with his brother… Assuring him that their 'messing around' wasn't a big deal, that guys did it all the time in private… All of it was because he wanted Charlie all to himself.

Don doesn't like to think about the years they were apart, after Charlie went to Princeton and Don wound up in the FBI. He doesn't like to think about how messed up Charlie's relationships were then because of how Don misled him about how things should be.

He's just glad that once they were back in the same place he hadn't lost his ability to seduce Charlie into their own private world where everything was perfect as long as Charlie didn't think too hard about it.

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Ninth Circle - Betrayers (Divided into Four Zones)
First Zone - Traitors to Kindred


Alan will never get his grandchildren. Charlie will never have genius offspring. There will be no gift of more Eppes brains for the world to benefit from. Don refuses to share Charlie with anyone. He's his, the world be damned.

He knows Charlie should have grown up happy and healthy, that he should have married before he hit thirty and that he should leave behind a legacy of not just amazing math, but brilliant children to carry on the work he started.

Don took all that from him. He knows he shouldn't have been selfish, that he shouldn't have ruined Charlie's life just to make his own bearable.

Some nights he lies in bed alone with his gun hating himself for ruining his family; for betraying his brother's youth, innocence and trust; for betraying his father's faith when he put Don in charge of protecting his brother.

But he needs Charlie like he needs air to survive.

Like a drowning man, he shoves aside the life preserver of the gun and reaches for the anvil of his phone to call his brother to come not save him.

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Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on February 23rd, 2010 03:49 am (UTC)
Confession
I confess this is another one of my experimental fic gone awry.

Back when I first started this fic in July of 2006 I had epic plans for it. Sadly, epic fic did not appear. And then no fic appeared. It sat on my partial list, essentially abandoned, until I signed up to finish it last month at ficfinishing. I came up with an exit strategy to reel it back from epic to flashfic without losing the ties to the circles in Dante's Inferno that inspired the project in the first place. (The bolded subtitles are all based on that book of Dante's Divine Comedy.)

I'm not thrilled with the end result, but the ending did turn out interesting at least and I am glad it's off my unpublished list for good. ;-)

Very special thanks to betas melissima and t_vo0810 for their assistance with this fic.

Thanks,

Emma DeMarais
Devo79devo79 on February 23rd, 2010 12:45 pm (UTC)
Re: Confession
If this is you experimenting and getting it wrong I want to see you do that a little more. I found it refreshing. The form and the nod at Dante works fine for me.

But I can see that it wouldn't have the same feel if it had been an epic.
batgurl10batgurl10 on February 23rd, 2010 04:10 am (UTC)
wow. very compelling! I love when authors touch on the OH that is messed up "" aspect of the being together. I think a lot of us get immune to the whole "nasty bad wrongness" of it. I lOVED how REAL dons reactions and matter of fact way he has of justifying everything while also being honest. Hey--HE needs charlie and thats all there is to it.

BRAVO! :)
cerealkiller0cerealkiller0 on February 23rd, 2010 04:38 am (UTC)
Oh this brings me back to my high school lit days...

I particularly enjoyed the way the explanations mostly get longer from the first circle to the ninth. It's like you're sinking down into it. A very nice touch.

Poor conflicted Don... And poor Charlie. Maybe especially poor Charlie. I was rather creeped out reading the Eighth Circle. As teenagers 5 years difference is more statutory rape/molestation than anything else and whew... gives me the willies a little bit.
melissima: eppes hugmelissima on February 23rd, 2010 06:07 am (UTC)
As always, you can shine light into dark places like no one else.

The rage builds up inside of him, self-hatred and self-loathing driving him to violent thrashing.
Omg. Scary and dark and flinch-worthy while also lyrical and beautiful.

But he needs Charlie like he needs air to survive.

Like a drowning man, he shoves aside the life preserver of the gun and reaches for the anvil of his phone to call his brother to come not save him.


He needs salvation, but he won't choose it - helpless, frozen in place by whatever made him need Charlie so much.

Stunning, my dear. Brava. ;-)

*applauds*
SamuelJames: Numb3rs-Don/Charliesamueljames on February 23rd, 2010 12:11 pm (UTC)
These were great, very dark look at Don's thoughts and behaviour. Was really shocked by him beating up David but you did it in a way that I could believe it.
rubynye: Oglerubynye on February 24th, 2010 01:30 am (UTC)
Great googli moogli. This is painful and astonishing. I want to say so much more but for the background soundtrack at my place...
Polaris Aphroditefree_anam_girl on February 24th, 2010 02:24 am (UTC)
wow I like it dark but damn it was a great story
devon99 on February 24th, 2010 10:00 pm (UTC)
Goodness, I liked this my dear. Very dark and sad and a very twisted version of Don that I enjoyed ♥
muiting on February 25th, 2010 05:13 am (UTC)
Very, very disturbing thing to read! This is the flip side of Don, the one that is angry, nasty and lustful inside. And I can feel that Don has been raping Charlie and puts it into his head that Charlie is allowing this and Charlie loves him too much to protest. I've read it twice now and I can't read it again. It's just too horrible, this hell of Don's! Brilliant writing as usual!
hime2emeh: famke janssenhime2emeh on June 30th, 2010 09:39 pm (UTC)
honestly, no one write Don like you do. i fucking love him :)

and i really really miss your long eppescest fic. can i look forward for something in future? stick to the old season (1 & 2) for all i care, i'll read it if it's yours :) i don't really like the later season tho. less brotherly and too much girlies.

anyway, my fav is Fourth Circle - Greedy. and am going through your journal to check if i miss any more long-ish eppescest :)
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on June 30th, 2010 11:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you! It's nice to know someone notices I've not done as much Don/Charlie lately.

I don't know if you ever read the Viceworld Series, but I've been working since November on the novel length prequel to it - Homicide - the one where it all begins. In it Alan and Margaret die so 18 year old Don takes over guardianship of a very screwed up 13 year old Charlie. Emotions run high as do hormones and they end up involved sexually - a relationship that spans pretty much the next two decades in the storyline of Viceworld. The majority of it is gen, but the latter part does have sexual situations in it.

Other than that I've been trying to get out a sequel to Honey and Roses for YEARS called Time Away. It's romantic and sexy and sweet and I adore it only it refuses to be finished. /glares at it/ I would like to add more to several of my Don/Charlie universes, but I admit none of them are seducing my pen ATM. (Sadly nothing is really, I've been ill quite a bit this year.)

As far as back catalog goes, the Eppescest classics when it comes to series tend to be: The Last Call Series, Conflict and Resolutions/Ash and Pines, Defensive Postures (and its prequel Starting Something In Stockton) and Vice. All of these are available listed on the last day of any month (save today for I am lazy and have not posted it yet) on my Journal Review under Series.

When it comes to one offs, Flurries is nice, Addiction is all sorts of wrong and Never Tell Part 2 is similar to Don Eppes Inferno so if you like your Don angsty and full of shame it's not long but it's pretty potent.

The Devolution Series *will* wind up full on Don/Charlie, but for now it's taking a long circuitous route.

One oddball suggestion: Constant Companion. It's set in the Firefly universe and it's written as if Don and Charlie aren't brothers (though I left Charlie with the last name Mann in case anyone wanted to pretend they were and were just separated as orphans), but it's a nice long Don/Charlie tale with bonus big bang art! You don't have to know anything about the Firefly show, though it helps, and they are still recognizable as themselves: Don is still in law enforcement (even if he works for the Alliance Police on multiple planets) and Charlie still has the brain of a genius mathematician, only he decides to study to be a Companion, a kind of very high class respectable geisha/courtesan. I really like how it turned out. Love, angst, sex, happy ending. :-)

Hope that helps direct you to some reading! I know t_vo0810 is working on a novel length retelling of Season 1 as Don/Charlie that I KNOW you will absolutely love. I can't wait for he to finish it and publish it. So have faith - more long D/C is coming!

Thanks for sticking with the fandom!
hime2emeh: famke janssenhime2emeh on July 3rd, 2010 01:27 am (UTC)
Thank you for taking time and reply me seriously. I wasn't expecting that :)

Actually, I haven't been around the fandom much since it's hard to find a good fic (and writer) in it's limited choice but whenever I've got the urge to read, I'll just come here and re-read a few story.

Which mean, at the moment, I have no idea which of the mention fic above I've read (if any). I assume I can find them here or at your website? I'll just go and check it out :)

Also, thank you for the info on t_vo0810. Am definitely looking forward for new reading material.
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on July 3rd, 2010 01:52 am (UTC)
Thank you for taking time and reply me seriously. I wasn't expecting that :)

Oh, then I've been a very bad author. I do try to respond to comments, but I've published so much and it ends up I spend most of my free fic related time writing new stuff rather than catching up on comments I missed when life got in the way. Mea culpa. I do try to at least say hi to people when they delurk, but sometimes it's just a bad time for LJ period. /shrugs/

My fic is organized in tags and memories, though I tend to only update the memories monthly or so. Tags are not perfectly reliable since I have so many fic, but the memories are helpful because they're by pairing. So if you look at my Don/Charlie memories you'll see a lot of what I've mentioned. You may also have to look in Multiple Pairings since that's where I put any fic that has more than one pairing in it.

Memories: http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=emmademarais

You can also check out my monthly reviews for series posts which link to each fic in a series - like Last Call for example. They're behind the cut tag in the newer posts, listed as Series Information.

http://emmademarais.livejournal.com/tag/review

Here's the Devolution Series post as an example:

http://emmademarais.livejournal.com/2009/05/29/

LMK if you can't find any of the fic you want to read. FWIW if you know a title I have annual review lists posted on the first day of every year. That's another way of looking for a specific fic.

As far as good authors go? Check out rubynye and den_of_cyn (who also writes with penguingal at penguin_fics) for Don/Charlie authors I keep going back to myself. You might also want to hit up the numb3rsficfind comm for Don/Charlie recs. And of course there's the eppescest comm.

If you still want more to read past that, LMK and I'll see what I can find. :-)
hime2emeh: famke janssenhime2emeh on July 8th, 2010 01:08 pm (UTC)
thank you so much :)

will definitely check out your suggestion. tho it will be slow progress cuz RL does get in the way ^^;

i have less time to read than i actually prefer *sigh*
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on July 8th, 2010 07:48 pm (UTC)
YW!

And don't we all? RL sucks up so much valuable fandom time. ;-)