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Emma DeMarais
27 August 2009 @ 08:46 pm
So I've been thinking a lot about whumping Colby.

Only not in this series.

I've been plotting this long H/C Charlie/Colby fic that's a crossover with House (I just need to find some dread malady to give Colby), but I thought it would be nice to do a gen Colby whump in preparation. The August prompts at N100 seemed like a nice fit for our Super!Colby, thus a drabble series was born.

I entertained the idea of placing this in the time after Trust Metric, but I wanted more flexibility. Plus I thought it would be nice to juxtapose Colby getting out of the hospital and returning to work after being cleared as a traitor and him getting out of the hospital circa S5. Totally different welcome back I'd imagine. Sadly, I had to cut all that I wrote on that front to make the word count. Grr.

This didn't turn out as hurt/comforty as I'd originally thought because I decided I was more interested in Colby's psychological recovery than his physical recovery. I was a fairly young adult when I was first disabled and it's hard to reconcile the seeming invulnerability of youth with the taste of mortality and infirmity that is normally associated with advanced age. In short, it just feels wrong. You want to believe you can be that strong again, that you can be whole, what you were. But sometimes you can't. That doesn't mean you can't work hard, try hard, learn to adapt. It just means some of that adaptation has to be mental/psychological/emotional - not just physical. And that's what I wanted to explore in Colby far more than his body healing and not matching his previous levels of performance.

The title's a bit of a misnomer and I kind of had to force it a little in the second fic to make it fit, but to me it represented starting over again with the most simple of steps. Colby - being impatient - wanted to leap and run ahead, work so hard he could be back to work immediately. But he really did need to go back to the start and do it right.

Few shortcuts in life... Me, I just hope the long road is scenic...

Series Information - Learning to Crawl

Learning to Crawl - Main (Published)
One Step at a Time - Sequel (Published)
Same Rat Race Not the Same Rat - Sequel (Published)
Jump In With Both Feet - Sequel (Published)
Stop And Start Again - Sequel (Published)