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13 April 2010 @ 11:40 pm
Numb3rs Fic: Glimpses into Fractured Worlds  
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Title: Glimpses into Fractured Worlds
Pairing/Characters: Charlie/Ian, David/Colby, Don/Billy
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: Sniper Zero, Man Hunt, Judgment Call
Summary: In every universe people come together to forget the pain
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ

Charlie keens, heedless of volume, stretching his body taut under Ian's onslaught - his anguish still greater than his escape, he wails his need.

Ian is all hands, body, skin, nails, teeth - scrape, grip, grind. He manhandles Charlie with all the brusqueness he keeps at bay during the day, relying on his humanity to refrain from causing more harm than this case has done already.

Pictures fade behind their eyes, horrific screams get drowned out in a cacophony of swear words and Charlie's more than willing to give up a mind of math for a night if it means Ian can also expunge the vacant eyes of a dead child from haunting him as well.


This time it's David who breaks, grabbing Colby by the back of the neck and dragging him into a kiss so abruptly the surefooted agent stumbles against the SUV trying to stay upright.

Colby returns the kiss just as vehemently; he was there, he saw what that son of a bitch did to that little girl. He needs this just as much as he needs to know that David, his partner, is going to be all right.

There's plenty of time to drive home, take a shower, wash the stink of fruitless sweat away along with the taint of cordite, but waiting means thinking and neither wants that, thus the search for oblivion gets bumped up to right the fuck now damn it.

The back of the SUV will have to do. It's fast and messy, no finesse, but when it's all about forgetting it's easy to forgive a less than loving lover.


Don, pacing like he's angry at the carpet, doesn't know who to call until suddenly he does. There's three more hours of pacing before Billy arrives at Don's apartment, breaking every speed limit along the way.

There's shouting first, self-recrimination, stopping just short of self-flagellation, but Billy's used to this part. Don can't move on to the rest of it until he's well and truly blamed himself for everything.

Then the sorrow comes. He quiets then and is finally able to tell Billy exactly what did happen, his words interrupted by hitching breaths when telling of five fingers bruising the tender arm of a tiny girl or the random splattering of red not polka dots on a pink dress.

But once he collapses in on himself, once he's reduced to nothing more than a body with no will to go on - that's when Billy steps in.

Coarse hands are surprisingly tender, a gruff voice whispers soft encouragements, someone who knows it will eventually be all right assures him it will be so.

Friction and heat between the sheets, moans and screams of sweet release, then silent sobs and finally: sleep.

Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on April 14th, 2010 06:41 am (UTC)
More angst. More PG13 porn.

This was supposed to be a bunch of different pairings from a bunch of alternate universes (including Don/Ian, Don/Charlie, Don/Colby, etc.) but for some reason I stopped at three and nothing more came. So I guess this could all be in one universe, but it requires quite a bit of suspension of disbelief to have six canon straight men all be gay.

In other words, just another day in the Numb3rs fandom. ;-)

So rather than glimpses into alternate universes that are fractured as they split apart into separate timelines, you'll have to be content with each fractured world being within each man's head - a world in which they seek to forget the evil that men do long enough to go back to work the next day to prevent it.


Emma DeMarais
rubynye: David & Colby (seraphina_snape)rubynye on April 14th, 2010 01:05 pm (UTC)
Re: Confession
It's a gorgeous kaleidoscope of angsty porn, is what it is. :)
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on April 14th, 2010 08:46 pm (UTC)
Re: Confession
You know, kaleidoscope is a perfect word for what it was like in my head. It was these slivers of universes where people sough out shelter from the pain with each other. I just couldn't translate that into a flat story. /sigh/ I want three dimensional storytelling now!

/♥s you and your lovely brain/
lilacs_roseslilacs_roses on April 19th, 2010 07:00 pm (UTC)
Re: Confession
1) Once again I'll just ditto everyone else's comments.

2) "... So I guess this could all be in one universe, but it requires quite a bit of suspension of disbelief to have six canon straight men all be gay."

Well... they could all be bi :) I seem to recall reading something somewhere that more people are inclined to be bi but they just don't 'cross the line' so...

And, maybe I'm just screwed up (uh... more than I *already* think I am /wry chuckle) but... I just can't help but think that there is a lot more 'fraternization' than some people think among people who hold such jobs. They work together, they see and feel together... who can really understand everything they have gone through and will go through more than the people around them who share the job.


Anyway, well done Em :)
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on April 19th, 2010 09:15 pm (UTC)
Re: Confession
Thank you!

If you go by the Kinsey scale quite a few people are in the grayer areas of sexual orientation than their labels would admit to. I ended up making a comment about that in Virtue, that Charlie was out as gay because people in LA had learned to assimilate gay men into their worldview comfortably while they were still iffy on bisexual men - as if they weren't sure how to categorize or view them.

I do expect a lot of fraternization in mortal peril type jobs, but I still say six men on one small team is way beyond the boundaries of probability. (I could so use Charlie to say how improbable it was! LOL)

Still, I liked it and regardless of how many universes it would take to make it happen, I liked each pairing's emotion. That's what it all boils down to for me - how it feels.
Candi: Colby and Davidmustangcandi on April 14th, 2010 11:49 am (UTC)
As always, beautifully done despite the darkness of the world around the characters. :)
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on April 14th, 2010 08:47 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hon. I don't know why I've been on such an angst kick as of late, but I can't see a good reason to fight it that hard.
ladygray99ladygray99 on April 14th, 2010 12:09 pm (UTC)
I enjoyed this. (Big shock, I know ) I like the way each man is coming off the same experience. I like the way each breaks in their own way. Charlie tries to shut his brain down. David, Mr. Cool, breaks first. Don blames himself. It all feels true to character.
Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on April 14th, 2010 08:49 pm (UTC)
Thanks. It was really important to me to have each one be true to at least one of the men in the pairing. The fic is short enough it would have been hard to be specific to all four, but at least Billy - at the end - wasn't involved in the case and so wasn't one who needed consoling.

I liked that Mini-Don new boss David broke first. It's a sign that he really couldn't hold out any longer. Don blaming himself was de rigueur; he's so like that in canon. I just hated having Ian admit to any weakness in this.
ladygray99ladygray99 on April 18th, 2010 09:01 am (UTC)
I think Ian and Charlie worked, actually. It is hard for Ian to admit weakness but there has got to be at least one thing that can get under his skin.
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Emma DeMaraisemmademarais on April 14th, 2010 08:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you! It's a rare fic for me in that I seem to have written it for absolutely no reason. I rather miss ficcing like that.
t_vo0810t_vo0810 on April 15th, 2010 02:41 am (UTC)
oooooo. me likey. guh. awesome job with the angst and the porn. <3