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26 October 2011 @ 11:59 pm
Firefly Fic: To Commune with the Stars  
Written for varietypack100 Multi-Fandom Challenge
Emma DeMarais VarietyPack100 Prompt Table
Crossposted to ff_fanfic

Title: To Commune with the Stars
Pairing/Characters: Zoe/Wash, Mal, Kaylee, Jayne, Simon, River
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: Serenity
Summary: Prompt - Star
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ

To be honest, it had never occurred to her that she would outlive her husband.

She'd had many a dream where, after a job gone wrong, a solemn Mal would limp back, bloody and ravaged himself from mortal combat, and deliver the news of her brave death to Wash. Strong as he was, she pictured her beloved breaking down sobbing on news of her passing and part of that pleased her - to know that her passion in life was equaled by such passionate grief.

She wasn't ready to be the grieving party.

No one reacts the same to a loss. Tomboy Kaylee blubbered like a little girl. Emotional Simon was steadfast as a rock. Jayne hid in his bunk in denial, probably getting drunk. Mal couldn't seem to look Zoe in the eye. River just settled into Wash's seat and started piloting Serenity as if it had been her job all along.

Zoe didn't know how to feel. The epic sobs didn't come, but the pain did. Moreover the emptiness - that's what hurt the most. There was a void inside where Wash once was and she wore it like an open wound that wouldn't heal. She wouldn't let it.

To heal was to forget and she'd loved too hard and too long to let her man go so easily.

They'd never talked much about beliefs or religion, but Wash had once told her he liked the idea that souls weren't planet-bound despite where they were buried. More than one faith believed souls returned to their birthplace in the stars, becoming part of the universe until they decided to be born again with their loved ones.

So Zoe would take the solo helm from River some quiet nights just to commune with the stars and talk to her husband.

ladygray99ladygray99 on October 30th, 2011 03:57 pm (UTC)
You made me go all wibbly there. This is so perfectly in character for Zoe.
Katherine Joy Summersstars_inthe_sky on October 30th, 2011 05:17 pm (UTC)
Oh, that was lovely.
sugar_fey: FF- wash/zoe embracesugar_fey on October 30th, 2011 05:44 pm (UTC)
Lovely. I really like the idea of Zoe thinking of Wash becoming part of the universe.
by way of memory: Firefly Crewvialethe on October 31st, 2011 04:12 am (UTC)
Aww, I think Wash would love the idea of being part of the stars. Very nice.
The journeywoman lives here: [Firefly] Strong womanmieystrapurore on October 31st, 2011 09:44 am (UTC)
I really liked this. Thanks for it, it was great characterization of Zoe
Spiralleds: Leaf on the Windspiralleds on April 26th, 2012 02:17 am (UTC)
I hadn't really thought about it that way, but that opening line is ever so true how how Zoe would have imagined things.

just to commune with the stars and talk to her husband.

Lovely end line too.