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12 November 2006 @ 12:09 am
Numb3rs Fic: Epiphany  
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Title: Epiphany
Series/Universe: Epiphany
Pairing/Characters: Don/Billy
Rating: NC17
Spoilers: Man Hunt, Longshot
Summary: Billy thought he wasn't capable of giving Don what he wanted
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ


It wasn't until he was buried balls deep in Don's ass that it hit him.

A fucking epiphany.

All those times Don dropped to his knees in filthy gas station bathroom stalls, sucking his cock like it was the fuel he needed to keep going...

All those times Don let him shove him up against the dingy motel wallpaper, yanking his jeans down unceremoniously so he could burn off his man hunting adrenaline with a rough fuck...

All those times they grappled in the back seat of the SUV, pants down and cocks sliding in tandem slick between their bellies because he couldn't wait to get off...

Don was telling him something.

And he hadn't been listening.

Don rocked on his hands and knees, bringing him back to what he was doing.

Or rather, not doing.

He moved his hands to Don's hips, digging his fingers in, bruising.

Pulling out he slammed back in, grinning in delight at the shout he wrenched from Don's lungs.

All thought, epiphany and all, melted away into the ether as he sank into the addiction that was Don's body. It was all he wanted – to fuck his perfect ass, to feel his mouth around his cock, to use his body any way that pleased him, knowing Don would say yes to whatever he asked for – whatever he demanded...

Vaguely aware of Don's keening at his need for release, he couldn't seem to delay his own pleasure to attend to him. He sped up, crossing the divide into oblivion, pulsing hot and thick into Don's ass.

Once he came back around he pulled out, pushing Don back onto the bed on his back and roughly taking his straining erection in his hand. A few coarse strokes was all it took and Don was coming all over his fist, a groan of relief escaping from his lips.

+

"I know what you want from me. I can't do it."

He sat on the sagging motel mattress and avoided Don's gaze.

"I can't be what you want me to be – we can't be... It's just... It's just not in me. I'm not like that. Not with anyone. Not even you."

He risked a glance at Don whose expression was shifting from confusion to understanding.

"I'm just not capable of it. But you are..."

+

An instructor position opened up at Quantico – tactical, which Don would excel at given all his field experience.

He printed out the information and left it where Don could find it.

A month later they fucked for the last time before Don packed his bags to head to Virginia.

It wasn't until after Don was gone that it hit him.

He was wrong.

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Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 12th, 2006 08:11 am (UTC)
Confession
I confess this is not what I was trying to write.

Seriously, I just wanted to write something hot with Billy in it and I ended up with this angsty character piece.

Okay, there's porn in it, but still. ;-)

This is not my normal style though I couldn't tell you why I think that. It just feels different. You may agree, you may not. YMMV

This goes out to asemic and melissima for their continued inspiration, support and advice when it comes to me pushing myself as a writer.

Thanks,

Emma DeMarais
NV: GIP - Whoaneur0vanity on November 12th, 2006 08:21 am (UTC)
Damn, girl! Damn, damn, damn. I so deeply love it when you write teh_pr0n. What really got me -- beyond the sex and the heartbreak of Billy realizing that he does need Don -- there's one particular part that really stands out to me, and there's where you're talking about them at a gas station, and you use the word "fuel." It's appropriate on so many levels, and I love that you did that because it's so beyond perfect. It's a seemingly small detail, but it's so significant in terms of style. Brava, baby.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 12th, 2006 08:30 am (UTC)
Thank you...

My muse does give me little presents like that fuel line once in a while - not nearly frequently enough though.

I beg, I plead, and she just demands more chocolate then goes about her business turning a deaf ear. /sigh/

Once I've given up hope she surprises me and tosses me another one.

Ah, muses... Can't shoot them (since they're non-corporeal), can't write without them. ;-)

-Emma
andi: Don & Billy actionadmiralandrea on November 12th, 2006 08:52 am (UTC)
Yahoo \0/ More Coop/Don makes me so, so happy! This seems to be my pre-series OTP, as in the series, I can't see beyond Don/Charlie.

And poor, poor, Billy. I just want to make it all better for him, by sending him Don *g*

Lovely lyrical writing as well, very evocative...
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Walking Liability: [N3] Sideways In Reverseasemic on November 12th, 2006 08:57 am (UTC)
i told you once that this was brilliant.

i'm going to say it again that i wish i wrote this.

god, you are fucking amazing

just like billy is amazing

you are wonderful

don't ever forget that.

Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 12th, 2006 09:09 am (UTC)
/is blown away/

Honestly, to make you jealous hardly seems possible. I think you had to tell me again - and publicly to boot - before I really believed it. Thank you. It means more than I can say.

Now, please... Help me understand what I did here to make you feel that way so I can do it again!

/is lost and wants so desperately to be found/

You know, all of these amazing words from you? Are made more so because they're what I think each time I read your work.

I may not always impress you like this, but you can be damn sure I'll keep trying. (FYI I tried today with My Arms Your Hearse and it's yet another fic like this one that I have no idea if it's good or not because it feels so unusual, so different from what I normally expect. I think that discomfort is a good thing, though I couldn't say why.)

Hope you're up this late for a good reason and hope you get some good sleep soon.

You just keep on inspiring me... Thank you...

-Emma
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Karen: numb3rs_Don don't askbyrons_brain on November 12th, 2006 01:39 pm (UTC)
Oh I love it... so sad....
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 16th, 2006 06:46 am (UTC)
Thanks... (Nice icon for this btw!)
rubynye: Manjuicerubynye on November 12th, 2006 05:13 pm (UTC)
Oh, BILLY!
*keens*
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 16th, 2006 06:47 am (UTC)
I know! /hugs Woobie!Billy/
irena_adlerirena_adler on November 13th, 2006 01:32 pm (UTC)
Sweet twist at the end. Loved the needy, completely open, sub Don!
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 16th, 2006 06:48 am (UTC)
Thanks! I may have to write him that way again sometime...
Nicelyobsessed: sexy agentnicelyobsessed on November 13th, 2006 03:31 pm (UTC)
Don is someone you can't forget...
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on November 16th, 2006 06:50 am (UTC)
Well, in Man Hunt they embrace in front of a room full of fellow agents. Manly men don't do that with just anyone...

Don Eppes: Unforgettable.
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Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 6th, 2006 11:50 am (UTC)
Hee! And you've got the icon to prove it? ;-)

Looks like you are working your way through my back catalog. Cool! This is one I wasn't sure would work out, but I ended up really liking it.

Thanks,

Emma
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Heatheraslin on June 12th, 2007 06:11 pm (UTC)
More? ::hopes to inspire the muse once again:: sequels=happiness :)
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on June 12th, 2007 06:20 pm (UTC)
LOL! Sorry, this one is pretty self-contained. I can't think of anywhere to take it. I will write more Don and Billy, but I can't see this particular one turning into a universe.

That said, the muse might disagree with me. She seems to like you. Hehehe
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