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13 December 2006 @ 01:08 am
Heroes Fic: Beneath The Exterior  
Written for varietypack100 Multi-Fandom Challenge
Emma DeMarais VarietyPack100 Prompt Table
Crossposted to heroes_slash

Title: Beneath The Exterior
Pairing/Characters: Nathan/Peter, Mrs. Petrelli
Rating: NC17
Spoilers: Genesis, Don't Look Back
Summary: Prompts – Insides, Outsides
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ

004. Insides

He's bent over the desk, the knocked over pencil cup sending its contents rolling off the edge as each harsh thrust rocks the furniture and jars his insides.

Each time Nathan's cock drives into him it's like a kick in the gut.

He's made his brother angry before.

But never like this.

He's not naïve. He knows a lot of sex is about power and Nathan is all about power.

He'd never use the R word to describe his brother, but it's not like Nathan gives him a choice in the matter.

Peter pushes his brother's buttons. Nathan pushes back. Peter goes too far. Nathan puts him in his place.

His knuckles are white against the dark wood of the desk and he bites his lip to stay quiet.

The only noise is the slap of his brother's body against his ass until Nathan begins to curse him – reciting the inevitable list of charges of what crimes he's committed this time.

"You never fucking think of anyone but yourself!"

Fingernails bite into his hips and the desk drawer handles cut into his thighs.

"You jump off a god damn building without any thought as to what it would do to Mom if you died."

He tries to rise slightly, shift his position, but Nathan's hand on his back slams him down to the desktop again.

"I'm in the middle of a campaign for fucking Congress and you're trying to sabotage it! What the fuck were you thinking?"

The rage is like an aphrodisiac and Nathan comes hard, clutching and scratching as he explodes, emptying his venom inside his ass.

Nathan slides out and slumps onto the floor.

"You could have been killed..." he mutters. "Did you forget about me? Did you think about how that might affect me?"

He stands up stiffly, dresses and stares down at Nathan sitting on the floor – love, loathing, anger, pity and resentment all balled up into one dysfunctional glare.

"I can't forget you, Nathan. You never give me the chance."

005. Outsides

"Senator, have you met my brother Peter?"

A flash goes off as he shakes the Senator's hand. He feels Nathan's arm around his shoulders and senses the presence of his brother's plastic camera ready smile beside him.

"I'm committed to increasing public health funding for the mentally ill," Nathan drones to yet another Senator, dragging him along like a ventriloquist dummy on show and tell day.

He's just a prop. Nathan can do this without him and both of them know it. But he's expected to do his penance and playing the mentally ill little brother suits Nathan's campaign at the moment.

His mother appears long enough to air kiss Nathan – another flash – and to pat him on the cheek like he's four years old. "You're such a good boy helping out your brother like this," she tells him and then she's gone – off to schmooze someone important enough to warrant her time.

She understands the same thing Nathan does.

It's what's on the outside that counts.

On the outside his father died from an unfortunate heart attack, not suicide.

On the outside Nathan is a law abiding District Attorney, not a pervert who fucks his brother.

On the outside he's suicidal and depressed.

Inside he's not either of those things.

Unfortunately it's only the outsides that matter.

He gets a few minutes to himself and finds his way out onto the balcony. It would be so easy to just fly away, escape.

Only he can't. Not without Nathan.

Nathan appears in the doorway and beckons him to come back inside.

"Come on, Pete. I need you in here."

With a last look at the open night sky, he sighs and does as he's told.

He goes where he's needed.

Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 13th, 2006 09:10 am (UTC)
I confess that I wrote Bad!Nathan because I wanted to.

Chalk it up to a bad day if you will, but I've consistently made Nathan – my favorite Heroes character – into this misunderstood martyr if you will.

Until now.

I took the jerk that he was in canon and took it way beyond...

Why I can't write straight canon Nathan is too long a topic to go into. (I actually had to edit my last Confession post because it didn't fit LJ's character limit.) What is unusual is for me to make Adrian Pasdar, whom I adore as an actor, into such an irredeemable bad guy.

And yet there it is...

So we have two Peter POVs of their dysfunctional relationship which I don't even get and I wrote the damn things! I just let the muse have her way with me and figured I'd let readers decide how the felt about the resulting fic.

Oddly, I wrote this without naming it first which is very unusual for me. I came up with a rough name idea and ran a word or two through Google to see what might inspire me. (I like using coincidence as a collaborator and Google is excellent for that.) I came up with a phrase I liked: Beneath the Exterior, which went along with my idea of Insides/Outsides and what lies beneath. Interestingly the lyrics for a song by the same name popped up by a band called Walls of Jericho. I thought it would be interesting to link to the lyrics once I read them (YMMV as to how applicable they are to the relationship in the fic), but worried that with a name like Walls of Jericho they might be a Christian band who'd be horribly offended by being attached to a story that basically includes non-consensual incest. I shouldn't have worried. I pulled them up on Google and the first song title I noticed was 'There's No I in F**k You' which cracked me up. Clearly no need to walk on eggshells. ;-) According to Wikipedia they are a metalcore band. I'll have to give them a listen at some point, even if just to hear what these lyrics sound like in context of the song.

Okay, I'm glad I got that Bad!Nathan and Victim!Peter out of my system. Let's hope this was just a passing phase...

I now return you to your regularly scheduled Nathan. /grins/

Very special thanks to beta iolsai for her assistance with this fic.


Emma DeMarais
NV: Numb3rs - Nouveau Charlie/Don (zOMG gorgneur0vanity on December 13th, 2006 10:14 am (UTC)
Re: Confession
I like Walls of Jericho's "A Day and a Thousand Years." They're a pretty kick-ass band with a female lead. They're one of the very few with a female front. She's seriously badass; I knew somebody who was a roadie for a local metalcore band, and he was at a show where people were paying her to beat the crap out of them.

I like Nathan as the jerk he is in canon. slynn6776 has a series called Apocalypse that has what I think is a pretty accurate picture of the person that Nathan could become. What can I say? I'm a fan of "love to hate" characters.

Love the fic and how striking the differences are between what is real and what is presentation.
Re: Confession - emmademarais on December 15th, 2006 01:12 am (UTC) (Expand)
*unlurks* - gothicwhite on October 7th, 2007 10:32 am (UTC) (Expand)
Re: *unlurks* - emmademarais on October 17th, 2007 06:50 am (UTC) (Expand)
Keylaneverbelonged on December 13th, 2006 10:07 am (UTC)
I liked these. I don't know why. Maybe because it's a different sort of Nathan and Peter. Very well written. Nicely done. /hugs/
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 07:59 am (UTC)
Honestly, I don't know why I like it either. I adore Nathan so this confuses me. Still, it's a good story so I'm not questioning the muse. ;-)

BTW, I don't think I ever got around to saying so, but I'm always drawn to that icon. Again, no clue why I like it. I just do.


(no subject) - neverbelonged on December 18th, 2006 05:40 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Dianadumdeedum on December 13th, 2006 10:42 am (UTC)
I LOVE your Nathan, seriously fantastic <3 And SOOO hot. GOD I love your fic, really, I do.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 08:02 am (UTC)
I have an awful lot of Nathan love, but I always seem to write him how I'd like him to be. In this though, I write him as an ever bigger prick than he is in canon. WTF?

Still, he's *Nathan* and you cannot ignore him. Whatever he's got, they seriously need to be bottling it...

Thanks so much for your kind comments on my fic. It makes me happy to know people not just read but like my stuff.

(no subject) - dumdeedum on December 18th, 2006 08:10 am (UTC) (Expand)
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(no subject) - dumdeedum on December 18th, 2006 08:34 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - emmademarais on December 18th, 2006 07:40 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - dumdeedum on December 18th, 2006 08:19 pm (UTC) (Expand)
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MF Luder: Heroes faithmf_luder_xf on December 13th, 2006 06:42 pm (UTC)
Ouch. But good.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 08:03 am (UTC)
Ouch really does sum it up, doesn't it? LOL

Glad you liked it.


Angel Jade: Petrellicestangeljade on December 13th, 2006 10:14 pm (UTC)
Really enjoyed this. A bit of mean!Nathan now and again is definitely a good thing. Lets face it, he's no saint.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 08:05 am (UTC)
No, but he's my Nathan! It hurts to make him all mean! LOL!

Seriously, it is nice to have a variety of Nathans to enjoy beyond the one in canon. While I'm not thrilled with how TPTB have written him so far, I love everything Adrian does.


markyfic on December 14th, 2006 10:34 am (UTC)
Oh, but I like this Nathan. In that, 'oh, you hot bastard,' way.

"It would be so easy to just fly away, escape.
Only he can't. Not without Nathan."

And that up there why I like Petrellicest. The, "I don't want this, but I need this," relationship between these two, especially with Peter.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 08:10 am (UTC)
Oh, but I like this Nathan. In that, 'oh, you hot bastard,' way.

LOL! Oh, that made me smile. Thanks...

And that up there why I like Petrellicest. The, "I don't want this, but I need this," relationship between these two, especially with Peter.

So many people I know on LJ are entranced by the brother dynamic: Eppes, Winchesters, Petrellis (and to a lesser extent the Prison Break fandom). It's so easy to say that cestfic is just slash when the two hottest guys on a show happen to be related, but there's a complex interplay between love and attraction when you slash brothers. One of the shortcuts of fic is to use existing pairings so you don't have to establish love - it's a given. What's more given than the love of family? Pretty much everyone wants a deep and abiding love - someone who would give their life for them, never leave them. We have that already in our brothers. Putting them in sexual relationships is easy by comparison.

Bah! Overthinking again...

Thanks for your thoughtful comment.

Kayaishia on December 15th, 2006 11:46 am (UTC)
I guess I have turned Nathan into one of the misunderstood in my head - so it was nice to get a dose of the opposite. Really enjoyed. :D
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 08:12 am (UTC)
Have you read my other Nathan fic? He's very easy to love in them. I like making him a good guy deep down - which of course he is, it's just not shown enough.

Still, variety is the spice of life and this was my shot at another flavor of Nathan.

Thanks for coming to comment...

Meli Parker: Jumpmeli_64 on December 16th, 2006 07:08 pm (UTC)
Really good. :D Nathan is obviously the best character. ;)

It was sad but I liked it.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 08:14 am (UTC)
Obviously. :-)

I like sad fic, but this one was pretty darn dark.

Wait until you see the next one though. It's indescribable, but at least you can't object about Nathan in it. /grins/


(no subject) - meli_64 on December 18th, 2006 11:46 pm (UTC) (Expand)
rawthorne on December 18th, 2006 09:36 pm (UTC)
You seem to be opening my eyes to new pairings. Interesting. And even more interesting is the fact that I can see the appeal of the Petrelli's together in an odd, dysfunctional kind of way.
Emma DeMarais: BlueEyeemmademarais on December 18th, 2006 09:55 pm (UTC)
Wow, I'd have voted this as my *least* likely Nathan/Peter fic to get someone into Petrecest.

There isn't any incest fic that isn't dysfunctional, but yeah it's not a normal pairing. None of the brothercest in fandom is. Still, it's popular for a reason and as abhorrent as incest would be in real life, it fulfills a niche in fic thus ensuring its survival as a genre.

As far as new pairings go, I'm still dancing around the idea of trying to revive the Isaac/Nathan I thought up weeks ago... LOL Truly, I'd never have imagined the pairing if I'd thought about it, but my muse did a great job selling me on it. Now if I could only lure her back long enough to write it. (She's angry that I refused to get out of bed in the middle of the night to write it when she first gave it to me. /sigh/)
(no subject) - rawthorne on December 19th, 2006 03:33 pm (UTC) (Expand)